Mindset Shift

Being public in the work I do brings interesting experiences—especially when there is no outline. Typically, one masters a craft, studies it, and then steps out into the world with skills intact, feeling confident in the work produced. With only minor setbacks, there’s usually a roadmap, a guide to reference if things go awry, making it easier to solve problems based on others’ experiences.

Yet when you step into something that isn’t so mainstream, that structure and foundation are lacking. One takes a leap into the abyss in the hopes of swimming rather than sinking. All eyes are on you as you learn and grow in real time. I’ve thought about the distance between group channeling sessions and how it takes about a month. And in that month, I was given a lesson. One to understand, work through, and prepare just in time for another group channeling. I have come to loathe these lessons, and I feel this is a knee-jerk reaction.

I find my patterns in childhood, and what I have seen is that I loathe the hard things that take a lot of time and effort. I find myself saying, “Why can't this just be easy for once?” In turn, I hear that if it were easy, there would be no growth, and not that everything needs to be hard, but this is uncharted territory with no mentors or a blueprint for how to go about it. However, when I reflect on the lessons, once through them, I recognize I do feel a lot lighter. It’s not as big a mountain as it seemed in the beginning.

All that to say, my state of mind and past patterns have played a big role in how I perceive my path. And I question, am I making this harder on myself than I really have to?

The other day, before a personal channeling session, I pulled the Thunderbolt card from the Osho Tarot Deck. Gasp!! It is effectively the same as the Tower card in tarot. Sigh, another difficult lesson. In the channeling, much grief and sorrow came to the surface to be processed. Initially, I felt exhausted, but later that day, a lightness came over me, and I felt better! My mind seemed brighter with more possibilities. In that channel, my dear Lyran friends said, “We hope one day, when you see a card such as the thunderbolt card, that you do not fear or panic what is to come, but move towards it with curiosity.”

Old patterning can be hard to break. But sometimes, a slight shift from dread to curiosity might do the trick! TBD.

With love and gratitude,

Kaylah Dillon