A Recommitment to Myself and Communion with Spirit

When Chelsey and I opened Integrated Conscious Collective, the feeling was electric, buzzing with excitement about where it would go and what it could mean. But in the back of my mind, still a question: how do I tell people what I do? I found myself confronted with this time and time again.

A couple of weeks later, we went to the bank to open a business account. The long-awaited question, “So, what’s your business?” the banker asked. I froze. What should I say? Will they get it? How do you eloquently say you channel a race of extraterrestrial beings for the collective? We live in the South, the bible belt, if you will. “Energy work… uhh stuff with crystals, umm reiki that kind of stuff,” I say quickly. The lady proceeds to ask more questions and relates them to the healing work in Bali. “Yeah, kind of like that,” I said. She goes on to say that she and her coworker have been talking about going on a trip and experiencing all those things. Later, she brings back her coworker to help with something. She says, “Tell her what you guys do! She will love it!” Wow, I totally thought this was going to go way differently. Both women were so interested in what we did. More often than not, I am finding the universe brings you the right people at the right time. Yet, I find myself asking the same question: why can't I just be honest about this?

Fast forward, I’m asked this question by family and friends - what is your business? I still find myself caught up in what I should say or what that will mean if they actually know. I’ve come to realize this pattern of being scared to be open about this, and I’m aware of the past-life roots of exile and the difficulties it brings. Unsure if it is currently an embarrassment for being different or just a difficulty in embracing things more fully. However, through divine synchronicity, I am reminded by videos and other media that come to my attention of channelers before me discussing their own resistance and hesitancy at one point in their journey, and I feel seen, understood, and coming to the conclusion that this is just a hurdle to overcome.

Moreover, I’ve come to realize that I need to recommit to this work, which means being fully transparent and honest about what I do. Fully being seen, whatever that means, moving forward.

So, here it goes! Moving forward, I promise myself not to dim my light. To be open and inviting to all that comes from that. Recommitting to myself, the consciousness of which I channel, and the path forward. I’m excited and looking forward to seeing what comes and shifts as a result of this. Embracing all the growth edges and beautiful unfoldings.

With love and gratitude,

Kaylah Dillon